I feel like I've been posting a lot of "oh, how I had to pick myself up again" stuff...which is a bit concerning because really, I've enjoyed the training. I really do love this sport.
I feel that maybe I've been putting so much pressure on myself to improve over last year, that when I start to have a tough time I start to worry that I won't do well instead of knowing that I'm already so much better trained and fit than I was last year. And that sends me freaking out and swirling negative thoughts in my head...and that is where my battle lies.
As I look back on my posts and relive those moments in my head...they weren't that bad. Ok, maybe the bike accident, being sick, almost getting involved in a car collision, etc...were scary, but all the other stuff was in my head...all in my head.
I have three weeks to get my head really ready for CDA. I have faith that I have trained well and there is nothing now that I can do to increase my fitness or strength. All I have to do now is maintenance, rest, eat well, rest and think positive thoughts.
I have to believe.