Thursday, May 17, 2012

Out of Darkness comes Light

Who the hell was the idiot who said "Out of Darkness comes Light"???  I'd like to shake their hand and give them a hug.

According to wiki.answers, it was the Mayans (who, hopefully weren't right about everything) who came up with this notion as a way of depicting the life cycle.  It has since become a phrase of encouragement.  A phrase to remind us all that the dark, scary, trying, and heartbreaking moments are a requirement to finding light, joy, excitement, passion, and love.

Recent times for me have been filled with a lot of unknowns - where would I work?  would I be able to support myself again (yes, I know...but sometimes your mind goes there)?  would I find what I came here looking for?

I've only been here five months but I feel as though I've already been through so much.  With the help of friends and family, things have been happening for the good.  Through friends I now have a job that I'm enjoying - it offers the things I was looking for in a job.  Challenging? Check. Autonomous? Check. Nice people? Check.  Casual culture? Check (I wear flip flops to work).  Through friends I will have a great apartment to live in with a yard for my girls and cool landlords and right on the road to almost every awesome bike route out of Boulder.  Every day I drive to work with a picturesque view of the mountains and even on a rainy day, they're still beautiful.  I've had the grace of friends who've put up with me and my girls all this time without so much as batting an eyelash.  I have had the tremendous support of family and friends back home who've come to my rescue time and time again...even when they didn't know it.  There have been a couple of tough days when I thought I just couldn't do it anymore that I received several calls/texts that absolutely made all the difference.

This experience has definitely made me more aware and more grateful for the people in my life.

It has also shed light on the dark...and the dark has let to light.  But that is for another post.

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